Write Way or Wrong Way?

I can't be forced to write, for fear that I will lose my creative flow...... probably.  I need for my writing to always feel like it flows freely and open. I feel coerced when someone asks me to write. It's as if I'm compelled to second guess every keystroke, every letter, every use of grammar, every nuance. I suddenly feel like I will not be able to perform or not be able to put forth my normal witticisms and engage in my pursuits of self truths.

Of course  this must be a  psychological dictionary's blatant definition of deflection and  blame, fear, and doubt. What if what I write doesn't appeal to the target audience? Any who, who is my target audience besides myself?  It's my own way of journaling my thoughts so I can discover, find out, diagnose myself. Not quite sure I have figured myself out yet though.  Insert dry laugh here.

I have realized that I do not write for the masses, but for me so that the ones that I am surrounded  by can get to know me as well. It's much easier to break down a stream of consciousness when it's written than when it's blurted out in the middle of a discussion. There is a tangibility to the written word. You can read, and re-read, dissect and discuss; decipher, and sometimes even defend. You have to apply thought to the written word, and  even though there are countless words in countless languages, I found myself looking just for thee perfect ones to convey what I am trying to say that I can't do orally. Condensed. Most times........... Let me talk, and I would never stop. Promise.


Truth Be Told: Everyone has something unconventional that serves a therapeutic purpose. It's a way of coping and learning. The human psyche,  especially your own, is in constant need of interpretation and discovery. Writing just leaves a paper trail for the ones that love you to do the same thing. 

Think Before You Think.

Organizing my brain.

This CAN happen ya know. With practice.

With practice AND patience. Yep.

In order for one to organize their life, their home, their desk, their whatever, they have to start thinking in an orderly and methodically fashion. Erratic and irrational thinking is counter productive. Brain and thought organization and  physical simplicity are dependent on each other,  it's extremely symbiotic, one cannot exist without the other. You can't have an orderly home if your mind is full of disorder. That's why people with various forms OCD  are often extremely intelligent and efficient.. or so I would like to think. :)  They keep their mind free of dirt and clutter too!

If I am sitting in a room full of clutter, I cannot think clearly. If the television is blaring,  my mind goes into a non- functioning state and I cannot work, I cannot write, I cannot corral my thoughts on what I need to accomplish.  I cannot tune it out. I must turn it off. Both externally AND internally.

If I am thinking too much, pondering life's unsolved , elusive mysteries, or simply cannot clear my conscious, I am not productive either. I have to train my brain to rid it of excess just like I rid my kid's rooms of toys and old clothes when they are not looking. It ALWAYS feels better when you have less, doesn't it? Have you ever regretted paring down anything?  Not me.  I can't focus on any type or organization, order or work if my mind is 10 feet deep in thought... or... toys.  (shoes are exempt from this theory!)

 Truth Be Told: You must tackle all forms of clutter with a proactive approach.. Think before you.. think.  Eliminate the excess out or your life, your closets, and your mind. Watch how everything else falls into place like neat, little, soldiers, arranged in order of shortest to tallest, oldest to newest and spaced an exact, 2 inches apart.... oops there goes that OCD again.